ninasusanna - there and back again

Via Vienna to Brno and Back -November 2008

2008-11-11T01:08:00.000-08:00

Ahoj! It's lucky to have friends around the world - a perfect excuse to travel! At the moment one of my friend study in university of Brno so I had opportunity to visit in Czech to know that second biggest city of it. There are a lot of students in Brno and several international line also (or that's the impression which I get). I can't call Brno as a beutiful city or even pretty but it's fascinating like every old towns. You can spend there few days or week but during that you'r seen mosty all what theres to see. Few museum, few big and several smaller churc, some castels like Castle of Spielperg top of the hill midlle of forest park -and from where you have a great wiev over the city (or you could if it's not too misty like when we were..)

We spend one day at smaller and older city called Olomouc -and that was pretty town! I love this small old cities wich are kept their old faces. There was old astrological clock, same as Prague and we were lucky to be there 12o'clock to see that moving the time. I can recommend Olomouc for everyone. It's truly good spirit town!

Food in Czech was quite much what I expect; fat with cream, cheese, salt and sugar. It wasn't always easy to get vegetarian food and even harder to get healthy food.. but we were only 4 days so we try to enjoy as local food as possible (and didn't think about calories). Beer is most common drink in everywhere there and at Brno there is also few big brewery. We visit only in the brewery restaurant of Starobrno.

And of course we were watscing a hockey game of local team - and they won 7-1!! Yeah! Perhaps because of that the athmosphere was truly amazing. I've image that finnish are hockeypeople but czech are much vigorously!

We fly to Vienna and rent a car from Vienna airport for those four days we spend there. It was easier way to move there with three people and paggages. I drove. It was my first time really drive away from finland and first I was really really nervous... but things went fine and we get finnish speaking navigator into car which help a lot. Vienna is hugh tangle for driver but we handle that ok and czechs motorways are like a colefield comparing finnish plump roads so when speed was nearly 150km/h it feels like you've drive motorboat on the waves.

Roma - september 2008

2008-10-03T05:33:00.000-07:00

Roma - I was there and I wish I would still be there...

A Good Trip! Weather was better than fine, whole week was sunny and about +30'C so warm but not too hot. We had plenty of program but we try to take everynting quite easily whitout stress or too tight timetables.

FOOD is so good in Italy - at least if you know the right Restaurants. Definately the best pizza of the word could get from Da Bafetto (Via del Governo Vecchio, 114) And best pasta from Edy (Vicolo del Babuino, 4) Gelato is naturaly good in many gelateria but for me the best place is Giolitti -Definately, every taste are sooo good! Especially cinnamon, yogurt bianco and ACE. Few other very good gelateria are Della Palma (yogurt bianco, raffello..<3) San Crispino (plum and ginger-cinnamon)

Fashion you can't speak same time from finnish shops and italian boutiques... There is just too much and only limited count of money. I found 5 new bag and 3 new high heels, 2 dress and 5 skirt and many nice azessorices <3 But too many tourist shop with nonusefull staff, too many people who want just your money and don't wan't serve you if don't look good. I love Italy and I definately can think to live there but every country, every city and village have also them bad sides.

Very much to see. Mostly I've see before but you never bored to walk around the area of Foro Romano and Palatino, have a picnic at hot and dust Circo Massimo or help people take themself memoryphoto with Colosseum. We visit into many curch and cathedral as well as several crypt and all off those are different, many of them I'll remember always -like Vatican with all those amazing work of Raffaello <3

One week is always too short...

Tallinn -August 2008

2008-08-29T05:18:00.000-07:00

Worktrip to Tallin and first time of my life I sleep a night at the Old Town of Tallin. Hotel Wana Tallin was situated near "main gate" to Old Town, along the main street and near good small shops but unfortunately I havn't time to make any shoppings :(
We ate dinner in Peppersack where food was good and service was ok but best part of this restaurant is building and its history. I've been there few times before and surely will come again.
Next day we visit in Rocca-al-Mare Open Air museum where I was last year with yoga school. It was ame but now I saw partly different areas and now we ate traditional lunc in museum restaurant. After museum we visit also in Zoo but I don't wan't to write about that. It makes me feel painful sadnes even some of those animals seems to be quite ok. Why don't we have humans behind those bars?
Cruising ships of Tallink was again awfull praxis.

Sziget was awsome again -august 2008

2008-08-20T04:49:00.000-07:00

Festival area was quite similar as year ago. And even festivals take only 5days I quess there was at least as many people as last. Good party peoples! Life! Colour! Lot of different kind of programs and possibilities, not just music but art, cultur, humanitary, civil activism, performans, theatre, museums, sports, extreme activitys... you could make clothes, paint T-shirts, sing or dance or play some games, there was role playing area and middle age fencing. Best what we seen was Kitonb -group of air acrobats (show was very ambitious with music, lights etc..) , Luminarium, Tarot labyrinth, Extreme climbing track, Marionetdoll -show of one French artist... A lot of, lot of fun for five day! And of course the best; MUSIC! Jamiroquai, R.E.M, Mory Kante, Roisin Murphy...many other on the stages and feral spirit of happening around the party arenas. Best was Meduza at day times; I'm very dissapointed about the main dj's -the music sucks! It was too much drum'n'bass the whole week on the whole area. I understand that some freeks likes to party d'n'b but can't understand why we all should listen that! well.. we still had enough good music, enough festival feelings -actually so much that I quess this was last Sziget at least for few next year...

43 day till Sziget festival...

2008-06-30T05:08:00.000-07:00

Time goes very fast at summertime, sun shines and lot of nice happenings. So, festival -and Holiday- are nearly here!

Program at the festival isn't as good as I'd wish but there is enough bands / artists / dj's I like to see -actually if the whole program would be full off my favourities it would be very difficult to choose when to go where -and fact is; we are going to festival, we are spending a holiday, it's not mean to run from place to another whitout any fexibility.. :)

Only it's a little weird that there is so big part of program from 90's...where are all present hitts?!
At least these are still already on my schedule; MGMT, Alanis Morissette, The Presidents of the USA, Jamiroquai, Sex Pistols, Serj Tankian, R.E.M and The Wombats AND mostly want to see Pendulum Live (I've been on the dj gig and that was amazing!)
and of course the yekke yekke Mory Kante ;D
-perhaps I go to see also the finnish bands Alamaailman vasarat (I have no idea what they would play 'cause I've thought they are kind of haevyrock band but now they play on the world music stage) and Apocalyptica even I'm not a fan of that type of music but Hay, they are still finns!
These are on stages at evening time but natyrally we spend all nights dancing in Meduza or PartyArena -only I'm little dissapoint that there aren't any big names, perhaps all are good dj's and had mede a good mix but dj's with their own music like Gigi or Tiesto... Well, I can live with that.

One Rainy Day in Tallinn, Estonia

2008-06-18T23:01:00.000-07:00

I take a one day free from work 'cause I'd done so much excess hours. That was a tuesday so nearly midlle of the workweek and it really make sooo good and gave extra energy for these last few work days (friday is common national holiday here - it's midsummer eve).

We spend a day in Tallinn, mosty in Old Town - the part of city I prefer most. We had booked treatment packages from Reval Day Spa so we spend 3 hours at spa. I get manicur, pedicur and dermatologic skin analysis, "Star SPA" facial treatment and chemical lash and Brow dyeing with Nutriol Eyelash treatment. Place was peacefull and very nice with light of candels, serene music and rose petals on the treatment pool. Service was custom and they spoke a good english. I really can recommend the place. Only the prices aren too cheap but I think it ok to pay for a good service :)

Negative part duringt this trip was our shipping. We travel for first -and I also hope for last- time by Tallink Star to Tallin and aslo back. The ship is new and clean and nothing bad about that but... I had feeling like I've been on the playstation or in some other plasticreality. Big ship and only handful of people inside of there. And everything was automatic, selfservice. Worst of all was food service. A'la carte was closed and only choice was buffet where only server you met was at the door when you should paid before to go in from thre electric gate. Then palstic trays, disposable dish even wine and beer you should drink from plastic mug (not even plastic wineglass..) I don't wana tell about food but it was awful. Well we weren't hungry after that and we get a good laugh. One thing seems to be ok was sorting for different waste (at least bio and then the rest) but when we had finishd eating and I had -there at table- sort our bio waste and plastics to the different crowds...there suddenly (like from sky) walk one weitress, take both our waste crowds, smile for us and then we look how sho walk straight to the "normal waste box" and push all in :(

What I learn about that... Only the quick will survive!

Roma - urbs aeterna

2008-05-28T00:20:00.000-07:00

Finally we found a perfect hotel for our week (my birthday week) in Roma. It's near to Spanich Steps so whole city centrum is a walking distance. Fligts are also booked so now we should just wait till end of August...and dream! :)

One Beutifull Spring Day in Lohja

2008-05-08T23:49:00.000-07:00

Sometimes its enough to travel to your neighborhoods. There are more to see close aroud are than we appreciate. Thats why I was positively suprised after that sunny and pretty spring day which we spent in our neighbor city Lohja yesterday. There are more to see what I had noticed before. Yeah I've visit there several times before in spa, market palce and in few of those several strawberryfarms but yesterday was totally different.

First we went more that six feet under (actually 80 meter under) into the Tytyri mine. We had a quide who told uss about mine; its history and nowadays activity. Likmestonemine is still working somewhere +300 meter underground but there is museum and adventure route in about 80 meter underground. At the moment there is exhibition of 12 finnish glassartist which was quite interesting contrast for dark and unfertile old mine.

Alitalo Applevineyard was a small vineyard keeped only by one family. They have a lot of animals there too but their mainlivin is from apples. They sell those to markets too and about 20% of apples goes via juice to wine or cider. They have 14 different type wine, some cider, liqueurs and some distilled beverage. We taste one sweet wine, one semidry and one sweet dessertwine. I like those even I don't usually prefer else than grapewines. I even bought 2 bottle these applevines; one semidry and one sweet dessetwine - for my mom 'cause its mothers day this week.

Svartå Manor get me back to the 18th century and make me gasp for an enchantment. So great, so beutifull, so amazing to find kind of place from here. And I'm actually been there as a child and can't remember nearly anything. I wonder how it's possible 'cause now it makes so huge inpression for me. I really wanna go there soon again and spend whole summer day in the beutifull garden and in interestind old manor. I can't descripe it well, so I just put some pictures...

I try to remember that I don't allways need to travell so far to get these experiments.

Need to change scenery

2008-04-16T00:17:00.000-07:00

The world is a book and those who do not travel read only a page.
-St. Augustine

I'm so fed up to live this regular, meaningless life and stay in these same circles in the same small cities in the so same and so small and so blunt Finland. I need to go away and see new places. I really really wish the August come soon...

Waiting for the next holidays...

2008-04-11T00:21:00.000-07:00

Now I have bought our flights to Budapest and back as well as I bought a small cute hotel near from the city park. Can't wait, can't wait... Hotel seems to be good and nice but it was very cheap compared to flights which cost 40% more than the hotel for 8 nights with skandinavian breakfeast. But I'm glad I found this discount =)
'Cause of Szíget festivals are this year only 5 days we have 3 whole days just for city and shopping which means we can concentrate better to festivals while we don't have to hang around the city every day.
Hungary here we come!!!
And that will be on August. Then on September we are going to Rome but booking and searching for the best flights and hotel is still under way...

Tahko Downhill ski -week on April 2008

2008-04-08T03:39:00.000-07:00

The first week of April and weather was amazing! Sunshine nearly everyday, not too much so the snow was still snow -not a water but enough to warm and get colour into my face. We rent a cottage with 2 beathroom, sauna and a big living room with fire place. It was clean, quite new and cute with all comforts (disk mashine, microowen, tv and cable cannels) so nearly perfect -exapt those thousands ants whom also live in one corner of kitchen. So we definately didn't keep our foods in that corner! Otherwise I like the cottage very much and actually I learn to live with ants quite quickly -only the first day was a little chaotic...
Tahko is nice freetime centre with several activities. I spend nearly whole week on hill with my snowboard and was sooo ecstatic! Didn't have time this winter (yeah, What Winter!?) to go snowboarding so I have to take all enjoy from this possibility. Of course we use the restaurants while we were on holiday, not doing homeworks (well, cooking is nice sometimes and yes, we did food our own twice durin that week) For all those tahko restaurants I can really really recommend Syvärin Kunkku which is atmospheric small medieval restaurant near slopes. food was great, service was kind, menu wasn't too long but very good and there was quite long and quality beer menu also (more than 40 different beers) well, I didn't drunk those but my beerlover-father praised those were excellent. You can't eighter forgot Pehkubaari which are on the top of the hill and where is good soap lunchs, happy after-skis and many spcialities like old time sauna, cabinet for companies or partys etc..
There is good spa and wellness centrum also but we utilize only the bowling-hall. Didn't play my best but made at least one full strike and didn't lose many points for my mom.
I had an excellent holiday 'cause of lot of fresh air, exercise, good food, lovinf company, enough sleep and a classik book (I read Little womens since a long time)

Stockholm via ms Viking Mariella / March 2008

2008-03-20T01:34:00.000-07:00

It was cruise from Helsinki to Stockholm and back -again. And it feels too many times made-up. People around the boat are so same kind of as always, personal seems to be the same but fed up with their works and whit all those brainless customers. I have no idea why people seems to leave their brains home when they start a vacation. On these cruising boats it's even worst than usually. Alcohol, too much alcohol, gamblings, raunchy speaks, courting... Lot of teenagers, midlleage who search some variation for their conventional life, Asians..and us. Yaeh. Sometimes, like on these last trip, it really seems we'll be the only normal persons on the big boat. Haa..!
So viking line was something I don't necessarily want to suffer in the short run.
But Stockholm shows its nice sides again, even the feather was grey and gloomy. Södermalm is still my favorite palce in Stockholm. We take also a walk around the Old Town and ofcourse there's a lot of nice small boutiques but its like most of old towns; turists, turism, business, nothing original, nothing typically swedish. I know it's nowadays same nealry all around the world, in every small villages. Those McDonalds-H&M-VeroModa-Burberry blaa, blaa things. Still most of the places, all the good places have something their own too. Something original, something from which you really feel where you are. I haven't found that ambiance from Stockholm yet but in Södermalm I've get most close to that.
Narrow alleys, small old woody houses, cats, dogs, schools and nurserys. Ordinary life all around you. Sonorous swedish ja smiling eyes on peoples on the streets or shops. Or perhaps it's me who see just I want to see. Perhaps its because of holiday. I feel it's a real holiday when you don't think about home, work, upcoming day or anything else you see and feel at that moment. On that Wednesday 12th March I really feel I had a holiday!

Stockholm via m/s Viking Mariella - December 2007

2008-01-01T23:27:00.000-08:00

Yaeh. We were there and we came back. Alive.

These boats...cruisings. I quess you all know what I mean. We had a nice and fun time because of ourself (no, I'm not a selfish) I mean 'cause it was nice to be together with P & M, we had a lot of talk and laugh about, dancing is nice with company, the food was good and champaign even better (with caviar and strawberries, of course) ...but then some of those cotravellers. Ugh. Too drunk, too stupid, too agressive, too harass. Personal on the boat are nice and many of them know me and my sister (we have a good glory -the sibling who dance like a crazy, who order all drinks without alcohol and who eat allways a blimey long time) now we had M with us and I quess she's coming with us also in Spring..so soon they'll know her as well ;)

Stockholm shows its nice sides again. We spend whole day in Södermalm, walking a lot and visiting in a many small and interesting butiks. Duka was a nice found and we bought our parents christmas present from there (Duka design espresso cup -set).

Changes

2007-12-10T05:32:00.000-08:00

I spend so much time on LiveJournal and Facebook and -thank god- I have a real life too that this blog seems to be quite gratuitous. At least if I don't write anything. But I thought I could write here something from all travells I do (and I hope I get possibility to travell a lot..)
This autumn has been quite quiet.

But on the next sunday we'll go to short visit to Stockholm with my sister and our friend.

Sziget -festival 2007 / Budapest / Hungary

2007-08-28T03:20:00.000-07:00

The biggest festival in Europe since 1993 so these were 15th festival with anout 400 000 people and nearly 1000 artist including something for everyone! It was something amazing! Something totally different than finnish rock festivals... I mean that there were loads of other things beside music... Theatre, dance, classical music, cabaret, performances, films, fine art, crafts, literary presentations, programs for kids, sports and other free time activities like logic games for me. All happenings, stages and event tents, restaurants, clothshops, record shops, sport areas were aroud that big island. Sziget means island in hungary and the festival has get it names from the place. Camping was allaround in festival-island. Every forest between those meny stages were full of tents. Around o'clock there happend something -the whole one week! DJ Party's, Reggae-, Jazz-, Soul-, WorldMusic-, MetalMusic-, Localartists...each of them had own stage and "village" aroud that; food and drink possibilities, cloths and other stuffs which might gratified those people who like to stay listening to just that music genre.
I saw Pink and Faithless and Sinead O'Connor and Within Temptations, SoulFly, Tool, The Killers, Nine Inch Nails, Negative and Hanoi Rocks and a lot of lot of other bands, one really good reggae band which name I don't know and few whose were ok...and of course those DJ's! Digital21 was amazing! also I like Dave Clarke and Motor and DJ duo Sharam/Deep Dish who play on last night. I have to go there next year again!

We stay on Hotel Noé in north Buda. It was cheap but small, nice, clean Tennis-hotel with Sauna!!! -from the hotel was walking distance to HÈV train or bus stop so it was easy to move there. I had a one week bus ticket and I really use it travelling aroud city shopping, alone, with friends or just seeing views. Every time I visit in Budapest it feels smaller and smaller, perhaps because it's not strange anymore.

The travel by bus was experience...yeah, I should use that word. Everything went fine and I could even sleep there but. Still. Next year I'll fly. Much more faster and comfortable. The best part of bus trip was staying in Cracow (2 nights) and visit in Auschwiz. Dark and gloomy place which make you serious but I think the dating just before oneweek festival was good; you don't have to stay too long in too dark feeling. Visit in Museum of House of Terror in Budapest wasn't good move from me... after auschwitz that was too much so I nearly walk through the museum whitout fucusing for those horribles. Whereas the Unicum Museo was really nice target. There was enough humor, not too much facts and of course the possibility to taste those legendary herbal bitters... I can recommend that but perhaps not to drinking those first in the morning into empty stomach. At least I couldn't.

2007-07-31T02:25:00.000-07:00

I haven't write a lot.
I haven't done a lot lately.
Only work, golf and home-yoga.
Being at home alone, with cat friend or family.
But on weekend, next weekend, the busses starts and we go to the adventure! Estonia-Latvia-Lithuania-Poland-Hungary...Budapest and the Sziget-festival!
more about that later...

5th Summer trip - Laulasmaa / Estonia

2007-07-10T03:50:00.000-07:00

The last week was fabulous! 7 days Yoga retreat in wellnes spa between blue see bay and silence ancient pine forest which make me think about lappland... Weather was fine and we had enough program from early morning to late night -so I slept like baby whitout any medicins. Food was fresh, healthy, mostly organic and athmosphere was kind and peaceful. My body thank's me likewise my mind -I'm like a reborn during last week...I just hope that I can keep this feeling - or perhaps develope this even better...'couse I'm Happy now and I like the feeling!

There was 60 of uss from Finland and I didn't know anyone else before (exept Kylli) but all of them were so wonderful and nice people and I guess after this there is always some friend in Shanti when I go to yoga...nice.

We visit also in Rocca-al-Mare Open Air museum which situatead quite close to Tallin. That is a place where would be nice to spend whole summer day with no hurry... The area is similar then Seurasaari in finland. There is saved 11 farm coplexes from around of estonia -from 1700 anniversary- and you can get a good picture of estonian village life in different era (well...there's no big diff whit finnish life) but I can recommend this for everyone who are interested about history. Like I'm. I like to walk aroud and create my self living in that age and wondering if I'd live there in my former life... ;D

midsummer and alcohol

2007-06-25T23:56:00.000-07:00

midsummer fest...oh la la...I don't wana say what I think about those -on generally- My weekend was peacefull. I laid on beach, reading and listening music, I walk around in empty city and eat ice cream -at the same when most of the finns drink too much alcohol somewhere on their cabins, burn themselves while grilling sausages or sink on the lake 'cause they have to go boating even they are pissed as a newt... yeah... I love midsummer (uh!)

can't understand why people wan't to be so drunk? now in summertime there is all around those drunk people who don't seem to be very happy...they spend their holidays drinking alcohol, lost all their moneys for that and get what?!...an awfull hangover or crapulence of moral. Well, we all made our own choises...

4 th Summer trip - Stockholm/Sweden part II

2007-06-24T22:54:00.000-07:00

We were again in Stockholm -Jiihaa- now by Silja Serenade which was nicer boat than Viking Mariella. The mean point was again stockholm not the ship -actually the point was buy more make up's from Åhlens. It's shame that finland is such a woop woop that we have to seek all new products from foreign countries. Thank god Sweden is more up-to-date and close enough uss. Well, now I have new compact powder and new colour eye shadow from IsaDora's mineral make up -I'm loving those!
On the boat there was typical cruising athmosphere but a quite good dance show and Dj. A lot of tourists from all around world so we could chat with australian, italian, turkish people...and with one gye from minnesota. Quite much young people which was nice. We drink a lot mojito's whitout rum -and most of the people roll their eyes for uss. The problem was their -not uss! We can have fun without any extra psychoactive substance -perhaps we have been (with my sister) under the influence whole life after the birth -but because of that we can have fun all the time and much cheaper and healthier than others ;)

Third Summer Journey - Saarenmaa/Estonia

2007-06-11T05:30:00.000-07:00

It was. We had funny in there -everyone I guess- but it's still ok to be home and work again. Three days with colleges and boss...three days we drink alkohol and get for the world better place (it's always same when there is more than one engineer in a same plase at the same time - we have to talk and debate without any breaks)

We went by fastferry Nordic Jet Line to Tallin and most of the grup start to drink already there... from Tallin we drive by bus to Saarenmaa via one shorter ferrytrip between Virtsu and Kuivastu...the trip from Tallin to Kuresaari take 5hour. It was quite heavy 'couse warm weather and drinking people (so, I had to open my first bottle in the small ferry too..)

Had a dinner and time to gether the first night - Second day we had tour around the island. We visit into Kaali meteorite craters (I had been there before but I really enjoy the place - it makes me into the feeling I'm in fantasy world) and in Episcopaal castle of Kuresaare (I'd also seen before but I'm also always like to spend times on an old castles). We eat a preatty good lunch in a restaurant of Georg Ots Spa and had also the most official part of trip after lunch; department conference in a conferes room. After the whole afternoon and evening was again free -just to be together. I bought clothes and stuffs - too much for my budjet.

The third day was again mostly travelling -bu bus, by little ferry, by bus, by fast ferry- so quite tiring. We had a little more than hour time to spend in Tallin after we visit to view bronze soldier of tallin in his new location on the cemetery. I made shoppings again in Tallinna (new strets jeans)

Grindhouse - Death Proof

2007-06-06T22:18:00.000-07:00

Halleluja! -again and again...the master of movies; Quentin Tarantino! So lovely, So marvelous, So...Tarantino! He did it -he did it again! Thank you! I had so fanny evening on movie yesterday -only minus is with finnish moviepolicy 'cause we couldn't see both Grindhouse movie at the same; the second part come to theather just on july...can't wait that I can see both of those at the same on a big screen...I hope it's possible soon after planet terror has had its premier.
-YEAH-
I really recommend this!

Second Summer Journey - Stockholm/Sweden

2007-06-04T01:02:00.000-07:00

Two nights cruise to capital city of Sweden -and back. The journey comes a quite ex tempore -we get information of that just a few days before. I was with my sister and two our girl friend (also siblings) and the point was accompanied sylman's siblings to stocholm station from where they start their inter-rail... They had won a 4person cabin into the ship so we get free cruise with my sis (actually it wasn't free at all 'cause food and clothes and make up's etc. cost quite much...well, who ask to shop so much?!)
I have never really like the athmosphere of these cruising ship...there is always so odd and miscellaneous people and most of them have function to be drunk -what a noble mening of live- but we had very nice time together on a going trip when there was four of us -we dance a lot- but when we came back with my sis we were quite tired after whole day walking and shopping etc... so we just watch one show and had a late dinner in a buffet restaurant. We were back in cabin before midnight. But it was nice to have time to talk together, long and peacefully.

First Journey at this summer - Turku/Finland

2007-05-28T05:59:00.000-07:00

I spend three days in Turku -the old capital city of Finland- beutiful and nice university city in southwest corner of finland. Archipelago landscape, modern city life and old architecture with many of wood buildings -I makes my mind calm. I like the trip even it was connecting work and I was definately one of the youngest of uss...mid age was about 30 year more than I have...and also the most common sex was another than my. It's always the same in my business. But could dance a lot! There was just a few dancing lady and several and several men who want take to dance uss...
We spend night in Forum marinum and before that we had few hour time to explore eachother and our beutiful get-to-gether ship Suomen Joutsen. We also visited in area of famous jailhouse Kakolanmäki in Turku (only by bus, didn't see any prisoner) and Conferes centre Alvarium which is designed by Alvar Aalto. After the Suomen joutsen the second impressive target for me was Turun VPK-talo (the old fire brigade house) where we had jubilee dinner on friday night.

Problem is; Men

2007-05-18T04:06:00.000-07:00

I'm afraid it's impossible for me ever understard what happends in men brains. Ok, yaeh, true, it's impossible to understand what happends in anyones brains, even our own -but anyway I'm always so out when I try to communicate with another gender. Perhaps the problem isn't those men but my capability to interpret them. However it's problem when I try to live in relationship. And maybe thats why I'm still single. Can I understand anyone else before I know myself better? And how long I have to wait for that learning and knowing myself? Why I can communicate so well with many nice, fun and intelligent men who I'm not interest sexually? Is that impossible to get in same package -sexuality and communication skills?

Sziget -festival, soon those are!

2007-05-16T03:13:00.000-07:00

I'm exciting....'couse of Sziget and more 'couse I get friend with me so I don't have to sleep with anyone stranger. It's so nice to go for travel with many unknown person -and that way get new contact and new friends- but board with some incognito...no thanks if there is choise of better -and there is; Taru! My dear friend Taru was so excited also when I told about festival trip and on next day she had booked a plase for her too...Jii-haa! From this it begin! The waiting - the summer - the festival and all! Budapest -here we come! =D

I'll have some other trip before august and sziget and of course I wait those also...But not as much as budapest. Music, dance, friends and more than anything...the city and it's architectur, green parks, many shops and sweet old metro-line...Jól Nyár! Betüzni hamar!

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now I'm even more ablaze! -we get 3rd friend -Anni- with us so there will be SO FUN! =)

2007-05-11T02:26:00.000-07:00

BUSINESS
Let's get down to business
I don't got no time to play around - what is this?
(Eminem)

LIFE
Yeah! What is this? -life- Why it's so troublefull?
Why I make it so messfull for myself?

WORK
If ya ain't got nothing to do -so work (say's Bob Marley)
-and taht's what I do -I consentrate to my work
I work in the mid-day sun,
I work till the evening come!
-that's how I can forget all those trouble-thoughts which spites me.

ANGST
I am a full-scale living catastrophe
It all seems so clinical insecure
My worst trick just take it and beg for more
I don't live life looking for sympathy
I'll come alive just give me some empathy
(Halo)

I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE IN A CRUEL WORLD!

middle of nowhere

2007-05-08T02:24:00.000-07:00

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I am totally Lost in my needs and wishies wiht my confused mind, whitout hope to come helped out of here.. sad but true fact is that life is cruel and only in our own hands. I have to find my own reasons to live. No one can give those for me...
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Still not alone.
Have to take care of others feelings.
Can't be too selfish.
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Crazy World

2007-05-04T03:39:00.000-07:00

Love and Happiness
-feelings which we pine and dread

War and Hatred
-feelings which make us stronger but miserable

Drearyness and Apathy
-we are pleased 'couse things are not as bad they could

Uncertainty

2007-04-25T02:26:00.000-07:00

Learning by trying its hard to deny it
while paying for what I used to know
Dreams are deceiving untill Im achieving
the goals I havent set too low

Waiting for a new day
to wipe away the Uncertainty
that flows around me
once again to stay

So many choices but so few answers
my time slips away while thinking too much
Whom to believe in theyre all just repeating
the same old lies so nice to clutch

Waiting for a new day
to wipe away the Uncertainty
that flows around me
once again to stay

-Stratovarius

Lonely surviver

2007-04-24T03:08:00.000-07:00

Mysteriously human mind -impossible to understand it.
Feeling lonely and need someone close to you
-as long as your alone.
When there is the one, the warm, the human,
the human who loves you,
you'll retreated,
full of fear.
There might be threat.
You have to protect your territory.
Pull everyone else away, curl up into your own refuge.
You see the shine but you live middle of the deep darkness.
It's not a problem darling, you'll survive.
You don't need enyone for that.
You know you're strong.
Your strenght,
your power and endless energy
are inside of you. You can't use it with love.
With human. With those greedy vampire who will sip you empty.
You need to let them go. You need to trust yourself.
Alone you're the strongest.
Alone you'll survive.
Otherwise...

one fact of my life

2007-04-24T00:24:00.000-07:00

"Civilization can be reduced to the following: 'I need a hug. Go away.' Unable to solve this conundrum, and having nothing better to do in the meantime, we build cathedrals and drink heavily."
-Tom Price

Rainy spring

2007-04-23T02:08:00.000-07:00

It is gray out there.
Rainy day after rainy day.
The Nature are waiking, slowly but certainly.
Like every year.
-now it seems to come earlier.
On may -before the Eurovision Music competition- we might have a green city full of flovers whitch would be better than nice! I don't know what I should think about that coming week...when whole city is full of tourists and Media persons etc. Nice if I can meet some new people but awful to try live your normal life in that chaos.
-
I miss the sun.
Yesterday was a little bit shiner but now it rain again. It have a big effect into my mind. My eys shine also (and only) same time than the sun...
I try to listen good music which help a little but I need something else into my workroom to get enough energy also for these graydays.
-perhaps some yellow colour picture..?

Something new for each day

2007-04-16T06:44:00.000-07:00

Today the new one was Gigi D'Agostino -Listen to his music
I like to found new sounds and new tastes everyday -it keeps me going!
Perhaps that's the reason I like to travel so much and as many new places as possible.
Can you give me a good tips?
-book, poem, exhibition, theather play, orchestra, artist...

Holidays

2007-04-16T03:11:00.000-07:00

I'm waiting for my holidays.
Those coming holidays give me energy to stand these ponderous days.
I have plans for next few month...
April; Wedings of my old friends...another side of finland -Ilomantsi
May; 3 days trip (mostly work but still a trip) to Turku
June; 3 days trip to Vilnius with workmates
July; 1 week Yoga holiday in Laulasmaa spa in Estonia
August; 2 week trip to Sziget-festival by bus via Cracow

I've noticed I need something to wait
anotherwise I feel myself borned and life seems to be insignificant.
But thank's to holidays - thank's to friends and partys - there is some meening also in my life!

Spring

2007-04-16T03:00:00.000-07:00

Spring is here
-finally it's here.
Warm sunshine
-I've waiting for you
during the long gray winter I spend in Hospital
Spring is here
-I enjoy the warmth
Love to walk outside and listen the birds
Love to walk and see the flowers
Love to go and play with dog
Love to stay and paly a golf
Love the feeling
-spring gives to me;
the Love

My needs

2007-04-13T00:21:00.000-07:00

I need some change - they made me a hair cut
I need some more - I feel nothings enough
Too many options - all those 10 million possibilities
- How can I make my choice?
- How I can know what is the right one? Which of those will satisfy me?
I' fear I'll never be contented.
What a pity

Youth of my Grandparents

2007-04-10T03:33:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wonder which kind of life was then...before.
Music, storys and movies are my memories. Don't know how realistic but don't we all make the memories of us by ourself -looking like us or our experience...
The real Nostalgy - something which I and my generation can only imagine - is in the music
My favourite club have a roots...somewhere...maybe in this; FEVER
check out also the other Grammas Swinging' Oldies!

Therapy and it's several alternatives...

2007-04-05T02:27:00.000-07:00

I should start to do some choices about the long term therapy which we had planned for my future. As a matter of fact my therapist will quit her job on June and it would be nice to know how I will continue after that…

There is so many choices in that field and I have no Idea witch working method would be best for me. Art-therapy has been one of my possibilities but also same kind of working method what I use at the moment with Mari -I suppose it is Psychodynamic Trauma therapy or something like that…

What difference is with cognitive therapy and psycho therapy?
How can I find the right therapy method just for me?
And after that -How can I find therapist whit whom I speak whit same language and whom I can trust enough?
Do I benefit anything even I'd spend few years for expensive and intensive therapy?

I think everyone have some problems and feel themselves a little dubiety someday but still it is only a faction of people who sit on sofa of therapist twice a week and had to process those problems. So, Why I should? -and the other hand- Why Not?

Idols -soon it's over

2007-04-04T01:54:00.000-07:00

Finninsh Idols show is in progress -the final competition is on Friday and I'm going to watch that with my friend. Don't ask about my opinion. I don't have. Both are young. There's as much good as not_so_good side in both of the competitor. I like Anna especially when she sing Latin music (her father is Portuguese) and I like Ari's self-confidence and perseverance but I don't think he can adduce it on right way. What a pity.

But here they are

And after few days

the wise finnish folks

have chosen

another of them

for a winner!

Even I'd always said this is bad format etc. I still had to watch it every week and now when it will end I noticed that I don't know what to do on thursday evenings at 8'clock -I don't know what to do on thusday evenings at all 'cause they also stoped to shown my favourite serie Hause.

ThankGod it will be summer and I don't even wan't sit inside and watch TV...

After work...

2007-04-02T13:25:00.000-07:00

I swim and enjoy. It feels always so good but today it was somehow easier and nicer than before. I didn't had much time 'cause I was so long in office (and I had hurry to home watching final of American Top Model) but I swim 550meter quite fast and sit in warm sauna after that...

And the best girl win! Congratulations Nicole! (I supposed the competition has been already half year ago...but in finlad we are always a little bit late...)

What is right and what is wrong?

2007-04-02T07:43:00.000-07:00

If it feel good and we both are happy am I allowed to be with a man even I'm not totally sure can it follows anywhere? I like to be alone quite much -maybe that's the problem- but not allways. I quess everyone need closer contact with an other person, everyone like feel to be loved. Is there something wrong in that?
I'm not even sure do I know what love is...do you know?
I'm not sure eighter do I know what I want for my life...

There are so many posibilities to come happy but also so many to draw a blank...how can I make the right choice?

How to live environmentaly-friendly?

2007-04-02T05:27:00.000-07:00

Air Pollution is bigger and bigger problem but people don't really Care about it! It makes me angry. You can read it everyday from the newspaper or listen from the news but nothing really happend. Citizens attitudes hasen't change a much. You drive everywhere with own car, as big as possible, you bought a moped for your kids as soon they are allowed to drive it. You have motorboat and skidoo -just for a fun! (who things it's really fun?) Flying is much cheaper than railway tickets. It's too difficault or too expensive to recycle waste -nothing matter for this poor little globe...

I try to live ecologically but I can't be contented for myself. I know I could do so much more! And if I'm angry because of the others habits and attitude I have to amend my own manner...

I already use public transport as much as possible (in shorter distance I use my legs, of course)
I recycle my waste; biowaste, paper, cardboard, batteries, glass, hazardous waste...
I recycle my clothes and buy some of my staffs from second hand shops
I buy organic products always when there is possible to chooce
I like to use small shops and neighbourhood products now when I'm not so poor student anymore
I close my computer and electric equipments when I don't need those
I notice how non-ecological it is to fly even I like travelling so much...and I did my decision for this summer; I'm not flying! I can't stay in finland...but I can use bus and boat. OR I can pay for CarbonNeutral to get better conscience if I had to fly
I bought my electric from company who use windenergy

You can do only small things at the time but whitout those small things: Things won't ever change better! Can you give me more tips to live better?

Wellcome -the new start

2007-04-02T01:20:00.000-07:00

It's beginning a new period of my life. Something happend soon (or sooner or later) I can feel it. I was half year in hospital and when I came back to work there has happend quite much. I have new room one floor lower than older one, smaller but nicer. Organization changes effect that I have some new work mates but nearly the same works. And same boss. I'm fine with these. Actually better than fine. When I was in hospital I had awfull stress about coming backt to work... What people thinks about me? How they react and what they'll ask for me? How much they know about my disease? But I worried for nothing. It was nice to came back! Everybody are so friendly here and felt like come back to home. Great!

My life is better aso in my civil life. In home. With my eating disorder. Hospital makes me good again (this was 7th long period in ED hospital and I really hope it was last one!) Now I have therapy two times a week and positive feeling about my future. I'm not a looser. I can survive.

There is a man who say he loves me. Man whit whom it's unbelieveble good to be. Man who would like to built future with me. But I'm a little afreid. Don't now why. I always have this problem. I fear to lose my freedom I quess. So I don't wana hurry. Step by step. Slowly enough.

This blog is also new. I have another blog also but I like start something else. Try something new. And this is english -another one is in finnish. I'm not an artist or good writer. In fact my english isn't good eighter. But I try to improve it. You can help if you want!